I happened to
be reading a book which in its plot depended on some knowledge of the Bible and
general Christian ethics. It wasn’t until I completed it that I thought it was
a bit odd that I recognised the background so readily. I’m wondering if my
children and grandchildren would find it so easy.
I went to a
Church of England primary school. Right from the early age we had bible
stories. We had a time where the local vicar would visit sometimes. and take
classes. I suppose I enjoyed the Bible stories as stories without making any
very strong connection with religion. In fact my connection with religion was
really as a teenager in confirmation classes. The vicar was repeatedly
challenged about evidence which supported his belief. His answer, which I’m
sure has wide application, is that religious belief is a matter of faith and
that to look at it rationally seeking evidence is the wrong approach.
I didn’t find
this evidence free approach satisfactory. I approached the Unitarian church who
seemed to me to have a more plain speaking approach. I recall my shock when I
talked to a female Unitarian minister. This was at a time when the C of E
clergy was all male so the female minister seemed to me to be a large point in
favour of the Unitarians. I was impressed enough to continue but withdrew when
I was asked to join their Fellowship of Youth
My parents felt
I should go to Sunday School. I went under protest intermittently until I
reached secondary school age when I stopped completely. Secondary school
religious instruction largely consisted of more Bible stories. I found this
boring having heard them before. It wasn’t until sixth form when questions of
morals and ethics were discussed that my interest was rekindled.
Later as a
student I talked with the college chaplain He took a very refreshingly, almost secular
approach. I remember he recommended the Economist as balanced reading and said
I shouldn’t be misled by the title as it is only partly about economics. I
found his recommendation excellent and I’ve been a reader ever since (
sometimes intermittently ) I shared a study with a convinced Catholic who tried
to persuade me. I did meet and talk to a Catholic priest but there was no
meeting of minds.
As a young or
mid aged man I gave little thought to religion. Inasmuch as I ever thought
about it was in connection with my children. Our two eldest did go to a holiday
school run by the local church. I was quite impressed particularly as they
seemed to have some good songs. The children enjoyed going.
Later in life I
often talked with my cousin who was a convinced humanist. He had a rather
similar background to me and I did find his position persuasive. What I did
dislike was his rather contemptuous dismissal of believers. This I thought was
rather at odds with the sensitivity and empathy he displayed otherwise in his
life. He was a do-gooder quietly and without making any fuss. He was a long
term volunteer for organisations such as Oxfam..
My final
position is that I’m a convinced unbeliever. The total lack of evidence for an
afterlife goes against all my training and belief in science. I rather envy
those who have faith but I can’t find it in myself to join them. I note that
people with faith are often happier, live longer and enjoy the church
community. I suppose I’ve lived my life since I was a student saying “where’s
the evidence” and I can’t stop now.
I generally accept
the Christian moral and ethical framework but I think the church plays
altogether too large a role in society. Particularly in morality I think the
church conservatism has hindered our moral evolution. I’m speaking here of the
C of E as some positions in some churches such as opposition to abortion I find
contemptible I have only attended one
humanist funeral but I found it much better than the Christian alternative.
I am fairly
happy that the moral and ethical positions in modern life are broadly Christian
in their origin. In this I’m deliberately saying Christian rather than church.
My feeling is that churches in general have not shown a lead but have rather
been a drag on necessary changes. Examples are far too many to enumerate but too
many churches have been overly male dominated and failed to take any account of
the vast change of status.in women in society. We haven’t reached equality yet
but the direction of travel is clear. I find it irritating that the church
position ( by which I’m thinking C of E ) is given undue weight in discussion.
I think that people are far more ready to ignore church views and think for
themselves. I would be happier if the falling church attendance wasn’t
accompanied by an increase in faith groups such as flat earthers which are just
plain daft. An example where the church has been ignored has been the
remarkable transformation in opinions on homosexuality where the reactionary
church view has been swept aside in broader society. I suspect the next change
will come with regard to drugs where the comparative safety of low strength
cannabis will be recognised while opiate addiction will remain a scourge.